think outside the box

where is my box?
where did i set the limit on myself and most importantly God?

Today was hugely unproductive in terms of 'work' but I was able to spend the last days with my friend as she completed her shopping for her big day. Im glad I got to help her out on this very important day of her life. So we met a prophetess who ministered to both of us. I always find prophetic word rather interesting as they affirm what might already be a message from God to you or a totally new direction for your life. Today was the latter

So basically big daddy in heaven wants me to think OUTSIDE the box.

To be quiet honest, my day was quite sucky. Dealing with internal weariness…my bible was not too far away. I chose not to feed the spirit. I just wanted to be mad and I refused to be comforted by the holy spirit or God. i even felt physical unease from just the stress.

Let me tell you this secret you might already know…….being Hurt emotionally is no walk in the park. I have been hurt physically, mentally but emotionally takes the trophy. It eats at you, steals your joy, distracts you from God and depletes every single life force in you. I felt like a ragdoll today being dragged around town. NO FUN.

i DID not praise God…I was depleted and weary. My soul was laden by a lot of cares. I couldn't cast them upon Jesus because quite honestly i wanted to carry them..I wanted to feel the hurt…maybe also I wanted to have a mild internal pity party.

Pity parties that begin as apathy and end as weariness are real. Sometimes I feel is all this gonna count at the end of it all? I know not but i don't know how else to be. Maybe I know how to be but I don't want to be that way …...Maybe I need to think outside the box

So back to the prophecy…thinking outside the box???
what box are we talking about. i frankly loathe this situation Im in right now. I know what to do but I'm not sure that's exactly the perfect will of God.
I have chosen a path of least involvement. I don't want to do the work to restore what the enemy has tried so hard to break.

My energy is sucked up into this mess, i DIDNT create therefore aren't willing to clean up. I seriously don't want to be disrespected and taken advantage of for one more single day .

but God says think outside the box