This time i might be running solo...

2014 …LETS GO!!

You have come to show me that I am the head and not the tail
That I go up only and not down and that success is my DNA.
To get somewhere i have to put childish ways aside.
I have to do things Ive never done.
I have to separate myself
I need to be alone

I have to give up some wants and even some needs
I need to STOP talking, verbalizing every thought, ranting, complaining, complaining, complaining.
Even writing..which i doubt as it can be for me quite liberating.
If I can't stop something that's bugging me i just need to surrender to big daddy in heaven.

Im pissed!! My life is not half how i imagined it to be.
But God is good and it's not his fault..It never is. Its all mine
I have allowed it. I've allowed mediocrity, distraction and lack of action.
I have been a dream child but not a dream person.
I have played victim. Not been assertive. Tough love is what most people in my life need.
This year Im dishing it out free. If you misidentify it as hate that's your own cup of tea.
Im not here to please you. My life was not made to bring you utter satisfaction..please look for that elsewhere. Its over. No more disrespect!! No more taking advantage of the situation!!! No more assumptions. If you care about me, you would want to know by asking.

It's over! it really is! time to get super claire underwood/patty hewes.